adam, my heart

Adam and I have known each other for going on 7 years. Ironically we met through Tristan, they were best friends. We have been buddies since and even stayed in touch between my relationships with Tristan.

Adam was around as the last relationship with Tristan was falling apart. He was a very dear friend to me as well as Tristan. When I started to doubt my relationship with Tristan and became genuinely fearful of what my life would be, Adam was one I went to to help me straighten things out. He is very unbiased when it comes to advice and was very good at helping me think of things from all angles. When I came to my final decision he made a promise that he would stand by me this time and be a friend to me- the first breakup between Tristan and I came with a lot of extra junk.

Adam was faithful in his promise to me. All of my friends lived elsewhere, so for a long time he was all I had and he wore that position well even when I made it hard. In April of last year things began to change. I could tell that he had turned to an interest in me and I was a little scared of it. It was very important to me to have the time to get myself together. I had lined up a fantastic job and was moving into an apartment and I really wanted time to just be me. He was very willing to be along for the ride.

In July we decided to give this a try but I realized that I wasn't ready and needed more time to work through things in my past. He was completely crushed but he gave me over to God and made the choice to let God renew his love for me. Slowly over the next few months things completely changed in me. I was ready. I was done with everything that I had been fighting and realized that I was letting them hold me back. Adam had never left and God was making it clear that he wasn't going far anytime soon.

Over Labor Day weekend I laid everything out for him and we hashed through everything that I had been struggling with and even the things that concerned me about him. Adam is a fixer. He tends to act before he thinks sometimes even when it comes to me. Over this weekend with lots of tears on both sides he finally learns how to help me the way I need and I learn to help him. He has never been in a relationship that gives. Every other woman in his life before sucked everything out of him. I was new for him and he was new for me. It was after this weekend that we began to work very well together. We were no longer just buddies. We were partners.

In October, Adam did the mature thing after us praying for God's timing and approached Tristan to inform him of our deciding to date-things with he and Tristan faded over time and they didn't even speak at this point. That talk went very well and it was evident that God had gone before us. After this we began to make our relationship public.

Our relationship has been incredible. It is unlike any relationship I've ever had. There is a maturity to it that is so comforting and makes it all the more realistic. Adam loves me with everything he has and asks God for the ability to give more. I have never wanted to give someone so much. I love having the ability to challenge him, care for him, and love him. We have overcome a lot around us and God is blessing us.

I am engaged to a man that loves the Lord more than anything. We have the beautiful blessing of being able to serve in church together. We are involved in the music ministry as well as the children's ministry. He is winning young men to the Lord and making a clear difference in other's eternities. I am excited to tears about the future that God has for us and the ways he will use us.

I have always heard that the best spouses are the ones that you notice next to you as you are running your course. Ones that have been there all along and God continues to reveal to you in different capacities. This year I am marrying the man that was running next to me. He truly is my best friend and life with him is the only option.