This is the first time in my life that I haven't had a group of people around to be my earthly support. I have many many acquaintences, due to being in one spot and so active for so many years, but only one true friend.
A true friend being someone I can call and at the drop of a hat and we can find something to do to kill the time and make the demons go away. He is proud to be this friend and I'm thankful to have him but the lack of others is taking it's toll. Especially this week.
My family has had a major issue occur this week, my brother has decided to take on another family completely and leave this one in the dust for now, school is stressful, I'm sick as a dog, and here I sit without my community.
I am tired, I am overwhelmed and all I want is a group of people around to invest my time and energy into to help it all go away. Most of the time I am just fine without it but I have my days when I don't know how I've functioned so long without it.
I know it is by God's grace and His companionship that I have made it through it all but I am still human unfortunately and sometimes I can't overcome those desires. Tonight is one of those nights
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