a lovely ride

I had every intention of doing this at the 6 month mark but I was in the middle of life so here I am 7 months later...

December 24th 2010 I called off an engagement. I made the decision to give up a life that I had run into to get out. He is a great man and he's been a great friend to me but it just wasn't a fit for more. This was a decision that forced me to get my feet back under me and figure out what I want to do with life. I went on  an extreme budget and set a goal to be situated in something by August 1st.

 I have had my heart broken multiple times by people that I considered friends. The Lord has put a lot of effort into ridding my life of all of it's toxins by removing people that I thought I needed and reminding me that HE's the only one I need. I remember thinking in December that I had no idea how I was going to make it through to summer without anyone around to count on.

So here I am as August 1st approaches after yet another broken heart situated not just in something but most things. I am sitting in an apartment that is entirely mine and a place I can finally call home. I am starting a job in 5 days that is an unbelievable opportunity. I get to go back to school in two and a half weeks which is waaaaay overdue. December is now 7 months behind me and I am overall happier than ever.

There are things in my life that I desperately want but God has decided that now is not the time for me. I often wonder why He doesn't give them to me but I have chosen to be happy with where He has me and what He's given me. I am thankful to have a God who takes care of the things that are out of my control and can find comfort in the fact that letting Him control it equals a better outcome.

I am far from perfect and made a lot of mistakes in the last 7 months and am unfortunately confident in the fact that they won't be the last. I am a sinner trying to do what's right in a world that encourages me to do wrong but my chin is up and I'm moving forward.

Thanks for coming along for the ride